Were those actual words I heard???

I've been off the drugs for several days now, and 80% of me had resigned myself to the fact that my hearing is not coming back and I have really gotten used to it. Not too many issues and I know that I'm still very lucky to be healthy other than this one little ear. But that other 20% of me has been quietly hoping and wishing for noises to suddenly get through... So every morning, I still do my phone test to see if I can hear anything other than the buttons being pressed. Up until Sunday night, there was still nothing.
BUT... Sunday night as I was laying in bed, unable to sleep, I thought I'd try the phone test again. I swear that I could make out actual words when my voicemail picked up. I was so excited, I hung up the phone and frantically tried calling my sister and mom, so that I could test out a real voice on the phone. I got my mom - surely she was totally worried when her phone was ringing so late at night - she probably thought I was having a vertigo attack again or something. But I said "Mom I think I can hear a little" and she was perhaps more excited than me (ok not possible but she was happy!). I got her to talk and put the phone to my right ear. And seriously, I could just make out words as she spoke! I truly think that 20% that it was positive thinking that made this happen. So now the test will be twice daily. So far, as of Tuesday night, I can still just make out words on my home phone. On my cell, I can't - it must be a lower frequency or something. But I will continue to try and think positively about it. You never know!
I also have an appointment with a Hamilton specialist tomorrow. Perhaps he will have a different diagnosis or treatment that works. Once again, positive thoughts.
On a "new reality" note, I was out in restaurants all day today in various meetings, and I found it much easier to carry on a conversation even with lots of noise around. So on the glass half empty side, if the hearing doesn't improve, I can handle it. (hmm. that sounds almost like a glass half full... not good at glass empty...) Give me a few more weeks and I'll be ready to hit the dance floor.
I just think that as long as you keep things in perspective, you really can get through anything.